Thursday, February 26, 2009

It's Lent

Most years I try to think of something to give up for Lent, and I've never really been serious about it. This year I preliminarily decided to give up that last vestige of refined sugar in my diet. However, that's more about me than God.

So this morning I was in the shower and it hit me, I spend most of my time on/near the computer. This is a bad, bad habit leftover from the days when I had to fit a little work in whenever I could. Most days I don't actually DO anything, just check Facebook and play games and check my email every three minutes. Not cool.

My commitment this Lent is to spend less time online and more time plugged in to God and my family. To accomplish this, I need to create a realistic but tough goal (at least for me), and I think that's one hour per day. That includes blogging, email, goal tracking with the ActiTrainer, etc.

This took 5 minutes, so I'd down to about 15 more for today!

Monday, February 23, 2009


It stresses me out. I've long held the conviction that this is the United States of America, a country founded on freedom, opportunity, life, for one and for all. But who is "all"? In my relatively conservative community, I see graffiti all the time posted anywhere they can tag saying, "illegals out". Funny enough, they just DID something illegal, should they be out?

Which brings me to what bothers me deeply, the whole sense of deserving. It is so sickly pervasive in our culture. We think we "deserve" a new car. We "deserve" that second piece of cake, we "deserve" to go shopping after a long hard week. What do we really "deserve"?

We deserve death. The Word tells us straight up that the wages of sin is death, and we've all sinned, so that's what we "deserve". The Lord graciously gives us one breath after another, and we don't "deserve" even that! "Deserve". The very word grates on me. Sigh.

But back to the immigrants. I think it's a highly unchristian attitude to think that this place is OURS and if you weren't born here, you don't get to come. I'm talking about Kingdom economy here. In God's economy, the Haves are supposed to share with the Have-nots. I'm not talking about communism, because it's supposed to be a choice, an act of worship to the glory of God. We don't engage in much Philippians 2:3 around here, "Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves."

I'm not throwing stones, I'm as guilty (deserving of death) as anyone else. This morning, though, I was reading in Leviticus 19:33-34, and I think it puts a pretty fine point on the whole issue of dealing with aliens.

" 'When an alien lives with you in your land, do not mistreat him. The alien living with you must be treated as one of your native-born. Love him as yourself, for you were aliens in Egypt. I am the LORD your God.'"

"I am the Lord your God", indeed.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Raindrops on Roses

My blog friend Michelle posted a seriously cool tutorial on making girls' hair clips. My girls have hair like I had a a child. The Firecracker Princess loves her hair LONG and won't let me trim it. If you have girls, go see what Michelle does, it's adorable!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

ElleBee Had to Post This For Me

Wordle: Untitled

But isn't cool?

You Guessed It, More Pictures!

Here are a couple more pictures of our trip.

On the Segway tour. It was w-a-y more fun than I anticipated!

Three Caballeros Donald in Mexico. No Panchito or Jose, though!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

The Seven Deadly Sins

My friend Beth posted this on her MySpace blog (if that really counts as a blog), and I figured, what the heck. Here's the seven deadly sins survey!


Who did you last get angry​ with?​
Linda the cake lady at Grand Floridian private dining. What part of "I don't care how much it costs, that's what I want" is too difficult? At DISNEY WORLD, no less!

What is your weapo​n of choic​e?​
My words, definitely. A post about this is forthcoming.

Would​ you hit a membe​r of the oppos​ite sex?
I have children, I'd hit anyone who threatened them in any way.

How about​ the same sex?
See above.

Who was the last perso​n who got reall​y angry​ at you?
Probably the Firecracker Princess, she is being a little sassy these days and is reaping the spankings from that behavior.

What is your pet peeve​?​
Um, wow. If I had to choose one, it would be the mentality that we "deserve" all the good things we have. Entitlement drives me up a wall.

Do you keep grudg​es,​ or can you let them go easil​y?​
I'm working on it, but I'm for sure a grudge keeper.


What is one thing​ you'​re suppo​sed to do daily​ that you haven​'​t?​
Shower. I try, but the kids don't always nap at the same time to give me that opportunity.

What is the lates​t you'​ve ever woken​ up?
2 pm, the day after band camp.

Name a perso​n you'​ve been meani​ng to conta​ct,​ but haven​'​t?​
Molly. She moved to Chicago like a year ago and I still haven't talked with her!

What is the last lame excus​e that you made?​
Probably not going to group last week because I needed to get ready for the trip It was true, but still, I neglected fellowship for laundry. :D

Have you ever watch​ed an infom​ercia​l all the way throu​gh?​
Yes, many times. You ever been up at 4 am while pregnant? It's infomercials, weird music on MTV, and CNN. Make your choice.

How many times​ did you hit the snooz​e butto​n on your alarm​ clock​ this morni​ng?​
My alarm clock is the babes, we all tend to get up at the same time, so no actual clock!

What is your overp​riced​ yuppi​e bever​age of choic​e?​
I don't drink most coffee house stuff because I don't drink coffee, though the apple cider at Starbucks is nice. Otherwise, it's water all the way.

Are you a meat eater​?​
Some of the time, once or twice a week.

What is the great​est amoun​t of alcoh​ol you'​ve had in one sitti​ng/​outin​g/​event​?​
Rachael's wedding, I was a little toasted.

Are you comfo​rtabl​e with your drink​ing and eatin​g habit​s?​
No. Well, my drinking habits are great since it's all water all the time and no caffeine or alcohol. As far as my eating habits, I'd say I'm about 80% there.

Do you enjoy​ candy​ and sweet​s?​
More than you know.

Which​ do you prefe​r:​ sweet​s,​ salty​ foods​ or spicy​ foods​?​
All of the above.

Have you ever looke​d at a small​ house​ pet or child​ and thoug​ht,​ "​lunch​"​?​
Um, no. I have thought, "I'm going to spank that kid medium-rare", but that's about it.


How many credi​t cards​ do you own?
I dunno, like seven. We use two sometimes.

If you had a milli​on dolla​rs,​ what would​ you do with it?
Tithe first. Pay off the house and the debt, maybe buy a bigger house to hold more children. Pay off my in-laws' house and give my folks some cash. That would use about all of it after taxes!

Would​ you rathe​r be rich or famou​s?​
Rich I guess, though upper middle class really appeals to me most

Would​ you accep​t a borin​g job if it meant​ that you would​ make megab​ucks?​
If it meant someone else had to raise my children, I'd say yes. For a year. We could make that last for a good long while.

What'​s one thing​ that you have done that you'​re most proud​ of?
The Princess, the Monster, the Look Alike.

What'​s one thing​ you have done that your paren​ts are most proud​ of?
I don't know that they're proud of anything I've ever done.

What thing​ would​ you like to accom​plish​ late in your life?​
I'd love to open my own Pilates studio.

Do you get annoy​ed by comin​g in secon​d place​?​
Highly. I'm a smidge competitive.

Have you ever enter​ed a conte​st of skill​,​ knowi​ng you were of much highe​r skill​ than all the other​ compe​titor​s?​

Have you ever cheat​ed to get a bette​r score​?​
Yeah. Rachael and I used to cheat on our state capitals tests in grade school.

What did you do today​ that you'​re proud​ of?
Today? Uh, it's 11:30 am. I'll be proud of myself for busting my tail for 2+ hours at the gym later today!

How many peopl​e have you seen naked​ (not count​ing movie​s,​ famil​y,​ strip​pers,​ locke​r rooms​)​?​
I guess three (if you count myself)

How many peopl​e have seen you naked​ (not count​ing physi​cians​,​ docto​rs,​ famil​y,​ locke​r rooms​,​ or when you were a young​ child​)​?​
Same three (again, counting myself).

Have you ever caugh​t yours​elf stari​ng at the chest​/​crotc​h of a perso​n of your chose​n sex durin​g a norma​l conve​rsati​on?​
I have caught myself staring off into "space" which happened to be someone's body, then realized it, blushed, and promptly exited the room, yes.

What is your favor​ite body part of a perso​n of your gende​r choic​e?​
I'm a butt girl.

Have you ever been propo​sitio​ned by a prost​itute​?​
No. But a former prostitute has asked me to take a class she was teaching, so that's a proposition.

What item of your frien​d's would​ you most want to have for your own?
My friend Stef has great appliances (her husband is a chef, what can I say).

Who would​ you want to go on "​Tradi​ng Space​s"​ with?​
Yeah, not so sure about that one.

If you could​ be anyon​e who exist​ed in the world​,​ who would​ you be?
I'd probably still be me. But perhaps for the sake of voyeurism I'd spend a day as Celine Dion, since we're like polar opposites.

Have you ever been cheat​ed on?
Not that I know of.

Have you ever wishe​d you had a physi​cal featu​re diffe​rent from your own?
Most of them, actually. But that's spiritual rebellion, and I'm trying not to engage in that.

What inbor​n trait​ do you see in other​s that you wish you had for yours​elf?​

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

We're Back!

I wanted so badly to tell you all, but I couldn't. The Music Man reads my blog, you see, and I didn't want the surprise spoiled! His birthday was Saturday, and he thought I was taking him to Savannah. Imagine his surprise in the car on the way to Macon when he completed his crossword puzzle and the word scramble (because I'm just that mean) and he found out we were going to Disney World instead!

Here are a few pictures from our trip:

MM with Frontier Donald (his favorcit character and the theme of the trip)

MM with Anastasia, Drizella, and Lady Tremaine. They are so beyond hilarious. I was wearing my Maleficent T-shirt, and Anastasia told me she liked my style. Drizella told me that Maleficent used to babysit them when they were young, but that they didn't really like it because Diablo (her raven) came with. This went on for several minutes, I really should've taken video, it was that funny.

Here's the cake I ordered for him. The situation with the cake was ridiculous, and it was totally imappropriately expensive, but it was gorgeous and tasted great. He was happy, and that's what mattered!

Here's us at Citricos with said expensive-drama cake:

More to come later, Blogger isn't uploading anything right now!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Here I Am

This post might ramble a bit, so bear with me. Yesterday was Elijah House graduation, and as weary and wary as I was about going, it was really kairos. We had some really good prophetic time, but even before that the facilitator spoke something about each of us. I was last, and that sort of stuff always makes me burn with embarrassment. One of the things Jane mentioned is that I was starting to open up and little and allow people in a little, and how I needed to continue to do this and allow my "deep gifts" into the body of Christ. I received it, and a friend of mine said something to the effect that I deserved that (kindly, of course). And I think he was right, I did need to hear it. However. Yeah.

I'll tell people my stuff. It's not a huge deal to me, though I'm relatively private and won't generally just volunteer that information. If you ask me something, I'll tell you, and I'll tell you the level of detail I think you need to know, even if it's the full monty. But I don't tend to develop new relationships readily, or I do and disclose what I think is too much and then pull away. I've always done it, ever since I can remember. And just today, I realized what that's about.

I'm not afraid of intimacy, per se. I'm more afraid of into-me-see. More specifically, I feel like I'll give what I think you need in the relationship and come to a place where I don't have anything left to offer you. Then I get afraid that you'll start peeking around the rooms of my heart and that you'll find, well, nothing. I'm totally afraid that you'll see that there's nothing to me, nothing of value to contribute to our relationship or the world at large. I don' think I HAVE any gifts to offer the body, so I don't try to engage anyone in anything, just as a protection for my own empty coffers.

As I was having this revelation, I heard this song bubble up in my heart:

Unashamed, by Starfield

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokenness complete

I think I started to quiet myself a couple of years ago. I was always SUCH a chatterbox, would talk your ear off. If I know you well, I still will. If I don't know you well, you probably won't hear me say much at all. I'm ok with that, I'm a take it all in kind of girl these days. Part of that is feeling like people actually KNOW me now, and I don't have to push who I am in your face. Part of it is a balance. It's an Elijah House principle that one person in a relationship typically exhibits opposite traits of the other person, and I notice that even within myself, from years ago on to today.

I'm not sure, but if I had to pick an idol for myself, it would be striving. You wouldn't see it much in terms of outward manifestation, but it's there. I try to remember everything, to get everything right, all hoping for the chance to be loved. By whom, exactly?


If I'm to beat this one, it's going to be alone. People tell me all the time how much they love me, and I just can't receive it (at least most of the time). I am going to spend some time meditating on God's promises and see if I can't make some headway, because this, this isn't much fun.